Things I did right:
- Take the opportunities to explore every dream, every idea, every opportunity. Once you marry those singular choices come to a screeching halt. I will forever be grateful that I took the opportunities I was given to finish my education, travel the world, and make mistakes that no one but me knows about.
- Be faithful. I know the only thing that has kept me sane, and happy (even when I felt miserable) was the gospel. Cling to it. Make it your best friend. You are NOT alone.
- When you fall down, get back up. Let your mistakes go and make tomorrow better.
- Never regret the people that you've loved. Even if they've broken your heart, turned their back on you, or treated you poorly - never regret the love and kindness you gave them.
- Have good friends. Wherever you can find them. When your family doesn't understand, when you feel alone in your ward, when you just need a shoulder to lean on - I know that unequivocally the friends that I have made (though they were all married, stay at home mom's and I thought they could never understand) have been my greatest champions, my greatest supports, and are now my biggest cheering section.
- I wish that I had found a way not to be so angry. Anger is a wasted emotion but it was part of my process I suppose. Feeling anger that deep makes my joy that much bigger but it made my sorrow that much darker.
- I wish I had found a way to let myself dream. I worked so hard at convincing myself that this would never happen that even as I stare at the ring on my finger I struggle to believe.
- Not worried so much. I couldn't rush today anymore then I could pick up a car and throw it. My faith wasn't strong enough to let this worry go but things would have been a lot easier if it had been.
- Paid attention to red flags in relationships instead of trying to rationalize them away. Heavenly Father will guide us if we will just listen.
- Trust Heavenly Father. Trust Him. Trust Him. Trust Him.
Thank you to the original Talking Walls girls - you have blessed more of us then you know.
Thank you Heavenly Father for not melting me down for parts years ago.
In closing I would like to say:
May the force be with you.
May the odds be ever in your favor.
And most importantly...
God be with you 'til we meet again...